Thursday, April 8, 2010

It's Been a Year...

and I'm guessing no one will even have this in reader any more. Oh well. I need to get a few things off my chest. I met with Amy and Art today, running buddies extraordinaire, and I decided I need to do something.

I had surgery in March of last year to fix torn cartilage, rehabbed all summer and did not really improve although I had some killer muscles in my legs. We started investigating things and decided I probably had a lot of scar tissue tethering in my hip. I had another surgery in December only to find out the tear was still there and the stitches were gone, and yes, scar tissue. After fixing it a second time, I was in heaven for about 10 days. Then all the pain came back. :( It isn't awful, but it seems to be always with me.

The latest, after another MRI, is that we think the plastic anchor of the stitch came loose and is sitting in my joint. We can't be sure, but he thinks that is what it is. A big piece of plastic in my joint!! I have to decide do I want him to go back in a third time or maybe send to his colleague in Vail to get his opinion. I am sick of this and you see why I am not blogging. I'm heavy, sedentary, and kind of a mess. I have nothing to say about running and no encouragement to give. I used to be Miss Encouraging, Miss Positive, Miss i don't care how bad I suck I still love running. I feel like that was someone else now. (see why I don't blog? I read old posts and I can't believe that was me. I love that me but I feel like I lost her...)

Still, after seeing Amy and Art, I felt a little encouraged. I really don't care if I have to have another surgery. I just want to be better. But maybe I could at least get back to some decent workouts. Amy had done a slow 9 and Art is working out like a fiend. Man, I miss them.

Trying to decide what to do with the blog. It is not going to be supported much longer so need to migrate to a blogspot. I used to the love the nonrunner thing, now I just hate it. :P and Nancy 26.2 is out of the picture. :( I'm still waiting for some inspiration... I guess I better think of something soon.

I miss you all tons and keep up with you on Facebook if you are there. I still am in awe of all your accomplishments. I feel like I know so many of you and you have been such good friends to me. Thanks for all the encouragement and hanging in there with me. Keep running as long as you can and enjoy every step.

26 comments:

The Laminator said...

Omigosh, Omigosh, Omigosh! Hi Nancy! Miss you tons! I'm saddened by the fact that surgery hasn't healed your knee yet, what's up with having a piece of plastic stuck in a joint? Ouch, ouch, ouch! Sounds so painful!

Yet, I still think you should be optimistic. It will ultimately be fixed and you'll be back to the old Nancy. Isn't it the longer you wait, the more you'll enjoy running again?

Either way, hang in there and be strong. Even if you can't run, we'll run for you in spirit because you were always the first ones to support us so now I feel like you're a piece of us now so no matter how many runs, races, and other things we do, we all kinda started together with you.

I'm wishing only the best for you Nancy. May we all be running strong together again one day soon!

Lisa said...

*HUGS*

Hang in there, Nancy. I pray you get some resolution on this and peace.

*HUGS* again

Mel said...

It was nice to see you post again! Hope you get some relief soon. Hang in there.

Kent said...

I agree with Mel. It is really good to see you post again. I know what a struggle it can be when you feel so far away from where you were. Boy do I know. It can be there again. It might not be the same. It might not be those fantastic mile numbers right away, but the feeling of pushing yourself further than you thought or think possible is still there waiting for you.

I just hope they figure out *and* correct whatever the problem is.

Hang in there, your friends are still out there. :-)

Non-Runner Nancy said...

Thanks so much, Lam and Lisa!! This means a lot to me.

Jamie said...

Oh Nancy - you are still in my reader girl! Love you!

I'm sorry that surgery hasn't been the end all to fix all... so incredibly frustrating. I am a huge fan of the "2nd opinion" no matter where it comes from. Good luck, hang in there, and for goodness sake let us know!

Even if this is a non-runner blog I would love to hear about everything else going on in your life. And if your are ever in the Chi-town area let me know!!!

Non-Runner Nancy said...

Thank you, Kent and Mel!!

Non-Runner Nancy said...

Thanks, Jamie! 20 miler, eh? You go, girl! I love your blog, I'll have to look at the new templates... Maybe it will excite me!

Pat said...

here's hoping the third time's a charm. Get that plastic out and start running again.

All us AZ runners are prayin' for you.

Andrew is getting fit said...

How wrong you were thinking we'd all given up on you and unsubscribed! Sorry to hear things are not going well. You are still in our thoughts!

ws said...

I was just thinking about you last week when I was running down by Boca. I'm just starting over, it's no fun cause I'm slow, but I signed myself up for this, again.

Hope you have a good Friday and a good weekend.

Dan Seifring said...

Hey Nancy nice to see an entry in my Google Reader today. Have a great weekend.

Vickie said...

Nancy, I am really sorry for all your pain and discomfort! I wish I could think of a way to get you healed or at least back to some sort of workouts. Can you do anything or is the pain too much when you do? If you can do something, whether its running or not,let me know through FB and I can send you a link to something I have been reading and following.

Razz said...

NO WAY I'D DROP YOU FROM READER! Notice the ALL CAPS there? That's how emphatic I am! Glad to hear you still have the desire to get out there. We'll be around to motivate. You know where to find us. :)

Wes said...

HEY HAWT STUFF!! :-)

I really don't care if I have to have another surgery.

Stop talking about it then and JUST DO IT!

You can always start running again at any time, at any age. We luv ya!!

Kathryn said...

You are still on my reader, and I was THRILLED to see a post here this morning!!

I am so sorry that you've had a hard time :( I hope you can find a place of peace and happiness right where you are now, and find Miss Positive again. I can already hear Miss Positive in your writing voice.

Please keep blogging so we know how you are!!!

merrymishaps said...

Oh, I'm so sorry. I hope they can fix you!

Scott Keeps Running said...

Hang in there. I've been nemesis-less for too long.

Reid said...

Of course I've still got you in reader. You were one of the first I started to follow! Runners don't give up on each other like that. It's obvious, Nancy, that you have tons of friends pulling for you. Third time's a charm, right? Good luck to you, Nancy, and I hope to see you back at it someday!

Aka Alice said...

Clearly there are some of us who never hit "delete."

I hope you find an answer that makes you happy and gets you back to being active.

If you migrate to blogger, let us know. I'll follow.

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Mel-2nd Chances said...

Great to see you in my reader too, but sorry that you're still on the mend. Best regards, and fingers are crossed for ya :)

Laura said...

Welcome back! Even if you aren't ready to make a full "comeback" and post all the time (trust me, I know how that is... went through some depression in the last few months that I'm really just starting to bounce back from), please do keep us updated. Hopefully things will start getting better for you!

Bill said...

Still in my reader. Good to have yo back.

Art said...

Since lunch I have been awful and have not responded to many emails. Went to respond to yours and decided to check out the new blog.

Not sure if anyone is reading??? 24 responses!!!

I sure miss running with you. You do what you need to do. If the opportunity presents itself, we will run again. If not, we can stick to lunches (and soon PTA meetings ;))

Shilingi-Moja said...

Like some others, I still have your blog in my reader, though I hadn't been checking it daily for the last few months. I was thrilled to see a new post when I checked the folder today. Welcome back. I'm pulling for you to get completely well and back on the road again. You have been an encourager -- looking forward to having you back.